What does it mean to feel an invisible sense of alienation while living a life that falls outside society’s definition of normal? This reveals how blurred and subjective the boundary between ”normal“ and ”abnormal“ truly is. This invisible boundary, shaped by baseless fears, confines and defines individuals, embedding itself deeply within society, where ridicule and exclusion come to feel natural. Moments of lacking conventional masculinity led to the experience of becoming an outsider. So, what does masculinity really mean? This book is a journey of exploring one‘s identity amid ambiguous alienation and understanding the gap between the self and society.